Summer is officially hit our home! For the first time ever, we are taking a few months off from school. I am working my tail off to plan next year. Okay, no I’m not. I am working hard when I feel in the mood. My mind is loving our break. Too much TV has already been consumed for both me and the kids, many books have been devoured, the house is clean and board games are being played. A few afternoon naps may or may not have happened. The girls and I are relaxing (possibly a little too much). It’s good. All of it.
Work must happen, even at a snails pace. If you read my last post, I am really struggling to make decisions on our social goals. The kids are semi-extroverted. They get that from their daddy. Being around others, really fills their energy and allows them to enjoy alone time. Too much alone time, and they start to feel depleted. They need social interaction for their mental health. Of course, I need to do my duty and make sure they are not some weird, unsocialized homeschoolers. (Yes, I am being sarcastic.)
I am a major introvert. I enjoy people in small increments. Too much people time, and I become a hot mess. I get cranky, exhausted and feel like I have nothing left to give to anyone. I take time every night for a long, hot bath with a good book in order to stay the joyful mom the children love. Large gatherings are overwhelming. Going out of town or having guests in town for more than 3 days will cause me to be a hermit for double the time.
The homeschool community is a wonderful support for families, especially if your extroverted. We have this stigma, that being homeschooled, somehow makes you unsocialzed, yet the public schools view of socialization was hell for me. I left school every day having nothing left to give. For years, I have felt major guilt for being introverted. The kids never complained. Not once.
We could be in co-ops with other families 5 days a week, exploring core and non-core subjects, along with making a bunch of friends. In order to do that, you have to either teach a class or pay a higher fee. First, we need time to do school, so that schedule would never work for us. Second, I don’t want to teach other peoples kids….. anything. Our big goal this year is to find more outlets for these social butterflies, without sacrificing my own comfort zone.
It hit me like a brick that I am primary a drop-off mom. I am. I want all the perks of socializing my kids, without having to take on other peoples children. For years, I questioned what was wrong with me. Why couldn’t I be open and involved in co-ops? Why do I struggle being super social? I have been verbally abusing myself for years. The closer I get to the big 4-0, the more I accept who I am, and stop with the self abuse. It’s time. I’m over it.
Introverted homeschool moms- accept who you are. Figure out your needs, the needs of your children, and find a balance. It is okay to be who you are. The kiddos will survive. Happy mom, happy kids. Meet their needs within your boundaries. Don’t beat yourself. Be you, and drop the kids off so they can do them.